Sometimes I wonder why I even try.I really wish sometimes I didn't care about other people as much as i do. It's turning me into some type of pyshco. Its useless to try and make sense out of what I'm trying to do because there really is no point in me hanging on to false hope. Seriously! I let my guard down for one minute and i get hurt again! Like I have many times before. I should had just been all tuff bitch I have no feelings blah blah blah about the situation and i wouldn't have to be going through this self inflicted torture that I'm going through right now. I mean who gets soo upset that they start crying at a fucken show. I guess I do. Which is pretty lame. But i guess in a way it shows i care. However in another way it shows I'm a retarded little girl. The kind of girls I can't stand. The girls I make fun of. ekk! what is happening to me.

New topic time!

By the end of this month i'm going to be so stressed out with absolutly no time. Drivers ed starts tomorrow. I have driving mondays 3-440 and wednesday 445-605. Then I also have theory classes on monday from 630-930! SAT classes starting sometime soon, Tuesday & Thrusdays @ 6-8. Then Play practice for the cruiable everyday after school from 330-530, starting jan 31st. Then the middle school play, i'm doing makeup for that. This week I have a PSAT family fun night I'm helping to run. Then NYC in febuary with cat and her mom. I'm soo excited for that. My mom is saying I need to have a job on top of all of this which means fridays saturdays and sundays I should be working. Ummmm I would like to have a life THANKS!

 

Yeah thats my deal. Peace <3

SICK OF LIES!

people need to start getting their shit together before I get it together for them.

I'm not a five yr old little girl who doesn't know the truth from a lie.

On another note: I miss Megan Dawn :[

I hold grudges.

Excuse my spelling.

ps. Its time to so em whos boss

Summer.

God I miss it.

Awww.

kshlkfhlkhf

Misssing it

Forget it. I'm going to vent.

Drama is uneeded in my life right now.

I'm sorry that its consuming me in a sense but I'm very upset.

I'm not going to say anything rude because I don't believe in the whole online fighting bull. So I will wait & talk to over with someone face to face. Because that what people with guts & dignity do. I have both of those. Which I am happy to announce.

I am not trying to be mean or rude to anyone. No names have been said.

This could be about something tottally different from what is all swirling in your heads. & honestly some of it is

March 2nd 2004.Isaac Fraser. My Father. My hero. My heart ache